on Songwriting...

I've grown tired with angry songs... Or maybe I've just grown tired in general. As a friend once told me, I need to focus more on the good, so that's what I'll do. I've got "Agony" on here. That's an angry song. The next one I'll probably do is either "The Color of Her Hair" or maybe "You Were wrong." Both of those are angry songs. But the lyrics I'm giving to you now are a little more hopeful. Happier. They focus more on happy moments of the past than the terrible moments of the present. I like telling stories through song. I like learning lessons as songs are written. I'm going to try doing this more often. I love the words I write. Every one of them, but words can't express feelings EXACTLY... nothing really can. That's what makes FEELINGS so special. They are one-of-a-kind, and only you can truly express them the way you really want them to. I express mine in poetry, lyrics, melodies....My poems are like diary entries. They express how I feel better than any other mechanism does for me. They're easy, they're cheap, and they're frank. There's no question that's how I'm feeling. I don't like leaving things "open to interpretation." I like things there. Clear. In my face, screaming at me. When I say, "I HATE!" I mean just that. When I say "I LOVE!" I mean just that. I don't write anything I do not mean. Sometimes things change after I write a song, so it's not what I'm feeling ANYMORE... but every song is a true story. I want my songs to reach people who can relate to me. I want teenage girls around the world to know that they are not alone. I've been broken-hearted. I've been lied to. I've had troubles getting accepted. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. And I have a gift to share to these girls. I want them, when their worlds are crashing around them, to use my songs as a source of peace, just like I use songs when I am struggling. I want to share this message. I want to be published. I want to give my message away... for free, if necessary. It's not performing. It's sharing.